Monday, February 5, 2024
Last Night's Sleep
7 hr 17 min
7 hr 17 min
Today's Forecast
Today: Cloudy this morning. Clearing this afternoon. High plus 3°C. UV index 2 or low.
Tonight: Clear. Wind up to 15 km/h. Low minus -4°C. Wind chill minus -6°C overnight.
Air Quality: 2 - Low Risk
Air Quality: 2 - Low Risk
Today's Journal
I was feeling "scanxious" last night and had trouble sleeping. Dennis had his appointment today and the doctor expressed his opinion that it looks like the cancer has returned and is spreading. He's going to arrange for a biopsy, in the next couple of weeks, then it will take a couple of weeks to get the results. He said next further surgery is out of the question, so treatment will consist of chemo and radiation.
“Scanxiety” is the distress and/or anxiety occurring before, during, and after cancer-related imaging/scans. It's an upsetting experience during and following cancer. The anticipation of medical tests can put worrisome thoughts into our minds and give us great amounts of anxiety and apprehension. It's important to understand that scanxiety is a normal response. Acknowledge that this is hard, and treat yourself with compassion.
A cancer diagnosis brings chaos and confusion, anxiety and stress. The treatment process is a long slog. From afar, someone battling cancer can seem impressively strong and capable, but the truth is, most of us are just trying hard to feel any normalcy we can. I always preferred it when people acknowledged the challenge I was facing, rather than being dismissive, like it's no big deal. It is a massive freaking deal. We have to go through brutal treatments, trust our oncologists, and hope for the best. Meanwhile, every day it's hurry up and wait!
“Hope is the ability to hear the music of the future. Faith is the courage to dance to it today.”
Today's Daily Affirmations
* I allow myself to feel deeply.
* It’s okay to be imperfect.
* I am creating a life that aligns with my values.
* I respond to life with equanimity.
* I offer compassion to myself.
* I let go of self-judgment.
* I am making progress on my self-development journey.
* I am thankful for the lessons I've learned so far.
* I accept my vulnerabilities.
* I am making better decisions.
Today's Exercise
4:31 pm - "Outdoor Walk" @cemetery w/Dennis & Tickles
20 minutes / 1694 steps / 1.14 km
7:16 pm - JA "Balance Focus"
15 minutes / 219 steps
15 minutes / 219 steps
Today's Total Steps:
7837
